太久没有单身了...
=) 总感觉怪怪的。。
累了，闷了。不能找谁。。。
连吃饭，都被人忘在家里了。明明再三提醒了。
最后，还是被人丢下了。
生闷气，又怎么样。别人没有义务陪我。。
所以还是自己一个跑出去了。
没想到，我会沦落到，自己走 pasar malam, 打包晚餐，躲在房里吃。=(
想发脾气，却又没有理由。
总不能，逼别人一定要带我一起吃饭。
我太过依赖。。我知道...
我会试着让自己，能够适应一个人的生活。
其实，也没那么糟。吃饱，睡饱。就够了。
有些话，想对人说，又说不出。
有些感觉，形容不出，只能藏在心里。
今天更可爱，醒来，housemate 竟然很惊讶地问我，“你什么时候回来了？”
=.=" 我明明一直在房间里阿。。唉~
明天去马六甲了。=)
希望一切顺利。把事情做好。。。
不要浪费了这两个星期以来的练习...
收到了year 2 的时间表。=) 看起来，很短很短。。。九月， sem 1 就结束了。
其实，时间过得很快。。
=D 有点紧张，有点期待。
觉得自己想改变。。。又不知道哪里变了.. =)
慢慢吧... 经历了那么多的事情，人会长大的....
不怎么喜欢自己的多愁善感。有人说我，“容易让你伤心，很难让你开心。。”
我自已也不确定。。 =)
自己呆着时，不自觉地，就会忧郁起来... ><
可是有时，就这样放任着情绪起伏，也挺舒服的。。
想哭就哭，想笑就笑。
没人能说我烦。我只会对着自己这样。。
不会犯人了的。。我尽量不会。。=)
Thursday, May 27, 2010
Wednesday, May 19, 2010
充实
电脑坏了。。送去修了好久。。整个星期了，爸爸才可以去拿。
星期五回家了才能碰到自己的电脑了。><
我回到了学校，开始在 condo 住。
不怎么习惯。不过，环境是比之前好多了。=D
这里比较凉。。。睡的也比较舒服。。
从星期一开始就在为 Public Health Campaign 进行训练。
每天都在学测量血压，以及 Body Fat test。。。还要为人解读结果。再加以 counsel..
其实，这是很好的学习经验。=)学到的真的很多。
每天9am 到 3/4pm.. 中间只有一个小时的午餐时间。。呵呵。挺像做工的哦。
有点压力的。必须尽量让自己学会面对不同的人。
>< 还要复习马来话。不然，很难应付马来文对白。
今天还进行了 suspension n emulsion preparation lab session.. ^^
满好玩的。只是，我打翻了两次东西。麻烦到人了。>< 真觉得自己笨手笨脚的。
天天重复一样的东西。是挺闷的啦。还要被人一个个test.. >< 看我们合不合格。
不过，还是学到很多。很充实的。^^
比起在家虚度光阴好多了。
星期五回家了才能碰到自己的电脑了。><
我回到了学校，开始在 condo 住。
不怎么习惯。不过，环境是比之前好多了。=D
这里比较凉。。。睡的也比较舒服。。
从星期一开始就在为 Public Health Campaign 进行训练。
每天都在学测量血压，以及 Body Fat test。。。还要为人解读结果。再加以 counsel..
其实，这是很好的学习经验。=)学到的真的很多。
每天9am 到 3/4pm.. 中间只有一个小时的午餐时间。。呵呵。挺像做工的哦。
有点压力的。必须尽量让自己学会面对不同的人。
>< 还要复习马来话。不然，很难应付马来文对白。
今天还进行了 suspension n emulsion preparation lab session.. ^^
满好玩的。只是，我打翻了两次东西。麻烦到人了。>< 真觉得自己笨手笨脚的。
天天重复一样的东西。是挺闷的啦。还要被人一个个test.. >< 看我们合不合格。
不过，还是学到很多。很充实的。^^
比起在家虚度光阴好多了。
Sunday, May 16, 2010
期待
伤心的事，写一些就好了。=)
朋友听你诉苦一两天，也就够了。
一直重复。自己不闷，别人都闷了。
没有必要博取同情。人不需要别人的同情来活下去的。
自己站起来，没有人有义务让你开心，自己让自己开心吧。
=D 今晚回学校了。在新的地方住~ ^^
希望日子更好~~~ 期待哦~~~~~
朋友听你诉苦一两天，也就够了。
一直重复。自己不闷，别人都闷了。
没有必要博取同情。人不需要别人的同情来活下去的。
自己站起来，没有人有义务让你开心，自己让自己开心吧。
=D 今晚回学校了。在新的地方住~ ^^
希望日子更好~~~ 期待哦~~~~~
Friday, May 14, 2010
哭过就好了
心情很怪，心里总是扭着的。
那感觉挥不去... 整个人，就一致，扭着的..
呵~ 这样形容，挺好笑的。
结束了，会不停的回想所有的事情。
那么刻骨铭心，很难叫人淡忘..
我也不想忘.. 其实，撇开那些问题，我们还是幸福的，这段感情，还是值得珍惜的。
“我努力想起你，笑着哭泣；让自己深爱你，再学会放弃，我不想忘记你，就算可以，我宁可记得所有伤心。”
我没表面上看起来的乐观，也没那么坚强。
其实，想让人知道，我也会伤心，大笑的时候，也可能心里在流泪，在淌血。。
之所以表现的若无其事，是因为，太伤感了，不忍触碰，怕一碰到伤口，泪流不止，就惨了。
会自己一个人躲在被子里哭，但第二天，还是好好的，日子还是要过。
有些感情，抹去了所有的激情，关心还是在的。
不想做最熟悉的陌生人。保持联络吧。淡淡的。也好。。
别问我，什么时候开始一段新的恋情或什么的。
不希望，好友突然向介绍对象给我还是什么的。
伤口一直在那里。对感情，是没什么信心了。
分分合合，这事，太复杂了。
“宁缺毋滥。不要因为寂寞随手抓一个恋人，这对两人都不公平，而且太缺乏责任感。找个知己不要是恋人。”
在网上看到这句话。。。可能这是我一直以来犯的错误吧。
或许，我需要的是个知己。
加入了感情成分，不自觉地，你也会给对方压力了。
我就是错在拿捏不当吧。抓得太紧了，风筝的线，也会断。
人常犯的一个错误，是对别人宽容，却对最亲密的人苛刻。
要求得太多，太贪心，就伤害到他了。
顺其自然吧。伤心归伤心，哭过了，日子照过... =)
那感觉挥不去... 整个人，就一致，扭着的..
呵~ 这样形容，挺好笑的。
结束了，会不停的回想所有的事情。
那么刻骨铭心，很难叫人淡忘..
我也不想忘.. 其实，撇开那些问题，我们还是幸福的，这段感情，还是值得珍惜的。
“我努力想起你，笑着哭泣；让自己深爱你，再学会放弃，我不想忘记你，就算可以，我宁可记得所有伤心。”
我没表面上看起来的乐观，也没那么坚强。
其实，想让人知道，我也会伤心，大笑的时候，也可能心里在流泪，在淌血。。
之所以表现的若无其事，是因为，太伤感了，不忍触碰，怕一碰到伤口，泪流不止，就惨了。
会自己一个人躲在被子里哭，但第二天，还是好好的，日子还是要过。
有些感情，抹去了所有的激情，关心还是在的。
不想做最熟悉的陌生人。保持联络吧。淡淡的。也好。。
别问我，什么时候开始一段新的恋情或什么的。
不希望，好友突然向介绍对象给我还是什么的。
伤口一直在那里。对感情，是没什么信心了。
分分合合，这事，太复杂了。
“宁缺毋滥。不要因为寂寞随手抓一个恋人，这对两人都不公平，而且太缺乏责任感。找个知己不要是恋人。”
在网上看到这句话。。。可能这是我一直以来犯的错误吧。
或许，我需要的是个知己。
加入了感情成分，不自觉地，你也会给对方压力了。
我就是错在拿捏不当吧。抓得太紧了，风筝的线，也会断。
人常犯的一个错误，是对别人宽容，却对最亲密的人苛刻。
要求得太多，太贪心，就伤害到他了。
顺其自然吧。伤心归伤心，哭过了，日子照过... =)
Thursday, May 13, 2010
你什么也没问，那我就在这说吧
突然想清楚了，可能这是最好的结果。
一直以来的执著，可能只因为，我一直活在回忆中吧。
回忆是甜蜜的，那么地让人沉醉，让人忘了，那已成为过去。
从一开始，单纯的动情，下赌注般的告白，呵。
同窗的日子，是快乐的。
再逐渐摸索清楚彼此的个性，喜好，生活作息，到融入彼此的生活。
过程好像很漫长，但都转眼就过了。
直到中六毕业，许下了那么多天真的承诺，应该说恋人们之间的话，只有当事人听了会甜蜜吧。
谁也不知道明天会发生什么事。我们无法预知未来，也无法控制一切。
我们都去打工时，第一次，了解，不再是同学，不能够在日对夜对。因无法习惯，开始起争执。
最后还是熬过了。
再到大学开课，更糟糕了，生活圈子不同了。
一开始，是我玩疯了忽略了你，弄得关系很僵。
幸好，还是互相妥协，恢复了过来。
之间，我总投诉你陪我不够，时常都吵架。
逐渐，大家的耐心都没了。只会对彼此大骂，忘了互相伤害之外的感觉。
那一阵子，自己一个人躲在被子里流的泪，是最多的。
连原本让人心疼得泪，都让人心烦了。
我们还是努力，想解决。可是，谁也改不过来。
问题一直存在。。。
是我太过依赖，还是你太不在乎，都说不清了。
可能我们都为彼此改了很多吧。
像，我为你，换了号码，与异性保持距离，并尽量让自己不要那么依赖，找事情打发时间。
而你，也抽时间陪我，哄我。
可是，我们最终都达不了对方的要求。
你说你有你的生活，你已尽力了。
而我，仍然嫌你陪我不够多。
到我选择离开，然后，还是回到你身边。
又回到同个情况里。你说你累了。
其实，大家都累了吧? 如果能一直像一开始时那样的相爱，那该多好。。
对彼此的感觉，是不用质疑的。
只是，怎么都快乐不起来。。。
所以，我还是选择了结束。。。你也不再挽留。什么也没问，什么也不说。
这样的结局，我们谁也不想的。。但，我真的看不到，继续下去，未来会更好吗。。
我真的会想，“或许，我们撑过了这关，以后会幸福的。”
可是，不知道怎么撑过去。
我还是放手了。是真的还爱你的。还在乎。却不知道如何继续下去了。
说真的，曾经，以为你是我的永远。。=)我是真的那么想。
以后会怎么样，我还不知道。
虽说时间会冲淡一切,我自私的，不希望你忘了我。呵呵。
这段感情，我是珍惜的。只是，无奈，最后还是结束了。
一直以来的执著，可能只因为，我一直活在回忆中吧。
回忆是甜蜜的，那么地让人沉醉，让人忘了，那已成为过去。
从一开始，单纯的动情，下赌注般的告白，呵。
同窗的日子，是快乐的。
再逐渐摸索清楚彼此的个性，喜好，生活作息，到融入彼此的生活。
过程好像很漫长，但都转眼就过了。
直到中六毕业，许下了那么多天真的承诺，应该说恋人们之间的话，只有当事人听了会甜蜜吧。
谁也不知道明天会发生什么事。我们无法预知未来，也无法控制一切。
我们都去打工时，第一次，了解，不再是同学，不能够在日对夜对。因无法习惯，开始起争执。
最后还是熬过了。
再到大学开课，更糟糕了，生活圈子不同了。
一开始，是我玩疯了忽略了你，弄得关系很僵。
幸好，还是互相妥协，恢复了过来。
之间，我总投诉你陪我不够，时常都吵架。
逐渐，大家的耐心都没了。只会对彼此大骂，忘了互相伤害之外的感觉。
那一阵子，自己一个人躲在被子里流的泪，是最多的。
连原本让人心疼得泪，都让人心烦了。
我们还是努力，想解决。可是，谁也改不过来。
问题一直存在。。。
是我太过依赖，还是你太不在乎，都说不清了。
可能我们都为彼此改了很多吧。
像，我为你，换了号码，与异性保持距离，并尽量让自己不要那么依赖，找事情打发时间。
而你，也抽时间陪我，哄我。
可是，我们最终都达不了对方的要求。
你说你有你的生活，你已尽力了。
而我，仍然嫌你陪我不够多。
到我选择离开，然后，还是回到你身边。
又回到同个情况里。你说你累了。
其实，大家都累了吧? 如果能一直像一开始时那样的相爱，那该多好。。
对彼此的感觉，是不用质疑的。
只是，怎么都快乐不起来。。。
所以，我还是选择了结束。。。你也不再挽留。什么也没问，什么也不说。
这样的结局，我们谁也不想的。。但，我真的看不到，继续下去，未来会更好吗。。
我真的会想，“或许，我们撑过了这关，以后会幸福的。”
可是，不知道怎么撑过去。
我还是放手了。是真的还爱你的。还在乎。却不知道如何继续下去了。
说真的，曾经，以为你是我的永远。。=)我是真的那么想。
以后会怎么样，我还不知道。
虽说时间会冲淡一切,我自私的，不希望你忘了我。呵呵。
这段感情，我是珍惜的。只是，无奈，最后还是结束了。
Why we left and why we will continue to leave...
Posted by: MS Mohamad
Source:The Star blogs
I read an interesting article today about a few prominent figures addressing their concern over the increasing UKM and UM medical graduates who have left the country to continue their medical practice overseas.
After reading the news for 3 times, I called a very close friend, an MD (UKM) graduate to ask his opinion on how the news might have affected him. He has been working in Singapore for more than a decade as a Consultant Surgeon with a certain sub-specialty
"Why be a slave in your own country, when you are a king in another?" He replied.
Indeed, if anybody would want to find a reason why all of us left, either after housemanship, after being a specialist, or even after sub specializing, and now, even prior to doing housemanship, they need not look at our payslip, or the wealth that we have gained overseas, but only to the Medical System that has been rotting in the ignorance and politic-based stupidity that Malaysia has been well-known for (in the medical field).
I have served the system for nearly 2 decades of my career, waiting for it to improve for so long, and only finding myself in despair, quitting with a 24-hour notice and serving abroad. The system is, in my opinion, keeping doctors, since the beginning of their career as House Officers to the end of it, in the lowermost priority. When I was working there, doctors are so ill-treated, while the nurses and the medical assistants are overpowering us.
I still remember the days when I was doing seeing patients and rounds as an MO, while the staff nurses would mind their own business, having breakfast in the pantry, or having gossip chats at their own leisure. My House Officers would then have to do merely all the labour-work, up to the extent of setting intravenous drips, and serving medications. If I am to expect the nurses, my patients would have been dead, or the work would have been too slowly or incompletely done.
When I was a House Officer, I had to run down 4-5 floors just to review a blood investigation of a dying dengue patient. The ward staff would either be nowhere around, or will say that he is busy (busier than the doctor?) or the answer I got at that time:
"Doktor nak cepat, doktor turun sendirilah, gaji doktor lagi banyak dari saya"
Even when I was a Specialist, the staff nurses had to be called again and again just to make sure the management plan for the patient would be done. I was already used to answers from them:
“I’m busy with something else"
“My shift is already over"
...it was routine for me.
The Medical Assistants were worse. They would hide behind their so-called boss, the Head of Medical Assistant. They feel hiding behind him would make them not under our jurisdiction, that we have no power to instruct them in managing the patient, that they have power to manage own their own. I've seen them giving medications not as we prescribed, performing procedures without our knowledge, as if they are the actual "Doctors". They are in their own world, and we have to do their job, taking blood, labelling samples, and even cleaning gadgets from the procedures that we have done.
Oh, but the ministry loves this group. They even let them run a clinic now, instead of upgrading the clinics already run by doctors. The government feels that the MAs are very important and should never be ill-treated by those big bad doctors. One time when I was a District Hospital Medical Officer, I was conducting a delivery of a baby. An MA insisted that I remove my car which was block-parking his car. I answered through the phone that I was busy.
He came to the labor room and yelled "Semua orang pun sibuk jugak, macamlah doktor seorang yang sibuk!”
It is insulting that an MA or a staff nurse claims that they are BUSY, as busy as a doctor? As a Malaysian Doctor, I have even worked for 72 hours straight. I have experienced working until my 6 month old daughter did not recognize me at the end of the week.
Is that how busy they are? I am very sure that they are so busy, that they can only spend 2 hours at the nearby Mamak stall, or can only leave at 5:10 PM instead of 5, or can only have 1 hour of lunch.
The management staffs are worse. I have to beg and plead so that I can get my on-call claims, of RM25 per 48 hours of work. While sitting in an air-conditioned office, they will at their own leisure, process my call claims so that I will receive them by the next decade.
The state health or Hospital Director would just give another inspirational talk (of bollocks) on team effort and beauty of teamwork.
That is how Malaysian doctors are treated in the government sector: without respect, without dignity and without significance. Why?
It is because we are bound by ethics to try our best to save lives, despite how ill-treated we are. We hardly have time to complaint because we are too busy or tired, and we would rather spend the precious time resting or seeing our loved ones. The burden of trying to save lives is on our shoulders alone. No MAs or Staff nurses would shoulder it with us. They have their own bosses: the Sisters, Matrons, or Head of MAs, which job description is to ensure that the big bad doctors will not ask their underlings to do extra work.
This is how the Malaysian Ministry of Health have treated their doctors. I am very sure that in each and every doctor, there is a slowly-burning patience in serving the Malaysian people, which will eventually fade and cause them to surrender to serving a place that treats them better.
A few colleagues who graduated from UK choose to serve there:
"The pay is more, and we get the respect we deserve"
Another works in Brunei:
“Here the staff nurses respect Malaysian doctors, and they are very co-operative" (He ended up marrying one)
A few are consultants in Singapore (working with me):
"Here we are treated well, we spearhead the management, and every else do their work to the best of their capabilities".
A few even enjoys working in Indonesia:
“The work-load is horrible since there are a lot of patients, but we are well respected by every hospital personnel" (They have migrated there for nearly a decade)
I am sure that people will see doctors as power-hungry individuals who want to be the boss in the hospital. Trust me, after having graduated 6-7 years of medical school, earning a DEGREE, and subsequently MASTERS, and SUBSPECIALITY, you would expect a degree of respect and being considered important. We are trying our best to improve patient's quality of life, or making sure he lives another day. Is it too much to ask from the system that we are important?
I find that Malaysia is the only country that is making doctors' lives miserable and treated like rubbish. It was never about the pay in the first place. It is about the treatment we are getting and the false political-based promises. Do you know that the so-called circular about doctors can have the day off after working 24 hours straight released JULY 2009 is not yet implemented? Do you know that the raise of UD 41 to 44 does not involve every doctor in the government service?
We are waiting for improvement. We have waited a long time when we were working in the system. Somewhere along the line we decided to leave and wait outside the system. Until the system changes, we will continue to work overseas, in countries which are appreciative of us. Trust me, Malaysian-graduate doctors are considered highly skilful and competent in neighbouring countries, and the 15 % brain drain is more significant than you think.
We will return when the system prioritize us and gives us the quality of life we deserve.
If it stays the same, Malaysian Hospitals would end up having Staff nurses and Medical Assistants as "Doctors", and we would have to send patients to Indonesia for an appendicectomy.
Hear our voice. We hardly speak, but will usually fade away from conflict (and fly to another place).
Source:The Star blogs
I read an interesting article today about a few prominent figures addressing their concern over the increasing UKM and UM medical graduates who have left the country to continue their medical practice overseas.
After reading the news for 3 times, I called a very close friend, an MD (UKM) graduate to ask his opinion on how the news might have affected him. He has been working in Singapore for more than a decade as a Consultant Surgeon with a certain sub-specialty
"Why be a slave in your own country, when you are a king in another?" He replied.
Indeed, if anybody would want to find a reason why all of us left, either after housemanship, after being a specialist, or even after sub specializing, and now, even prior to doing housemanship, they need not look at our payslip, or the wealth that we have gained overseas, but only to the Medical System that has been rotting in the ignorance and politic-based stupidity that Malaysia has been well-known for (in the medical field).
I have served the system for nearly 2 decades of my career, waiting for it to improve for so long, and only finding myself in despair, quitting with a 24-hour notice and serving abroad. The system is, in my opinion, keeping doctors, since the beginning of their career as House Officers to the end of it, in the lowermost priority. When I was working there, doctors are so ill-treated, while the nurses and the medical assistants are overpowering us.
I still remember the days when I was doing seeing patients and rounds as an MO, while the staff nurses would mind their own business, having breakfast in the pantry, or having gossip chats at their own leisure. My House Officers would then have to do merely all the labour-work, up to the extent of setting intravenous drips, and serving medications. If I am to expect the nurses, my patients would have been dead, or the work would have been too slowly or incompletely done.
When I was a House Officer, I had to run down 4-5 floors just to review a blood investigation of a dying dengue patient. The ward staff would either be nowhere around, or will say that he is busy (busier than the doctor?) or the answer I got at that time:
"Doktor nak cepat, doktor turun sendirilah, gaji doktor lagi banyak dari saya"
Even when I was a Specialist, the staff nurses had to be called again and again just to make sure the management plan for the patient would be done. I was already used to answers from them:
“I’m busy with something else"
“My shift is already over"
...it was routine for me.
The Medical Assistants were worse. They would hide behind their so-called boss, the Head of Medical Assistant. They feel hiding behind him would make them not under our jurisdiction, that we have no power to instruct them in managing the patient, that they have power to manage own their own. I've seen them giving medications not as we prescribed, performing procedures without our knowledge, as if they are the actual "Doctors". They are in their own world, and we have to do their job, taking blood, labelling samples, and even cleaning gadgets from the procedures that we have done.
Oh, but the ministry loves this group. They even let them run a clinic now, instead of upgrading the clinics already run by doctors. The government feels that the MAs are very important and should never be ill-treated by those big bad doctors. One time when I was a District Hospital Medical Officer, I was conducting a delivery of a baby. An MA insisted that I remove my car which was block-parking his car. I answered through the phone that I was busy.
He came to the labor room and yelled "Semua orang pun sibuk jugak, macamlah doktor seorang yang sibuk!”
It is insulting that an MA or a staff nurse claims that they are BUSY, as busy as a doctor? As a Malaysian Doctor, I have even worked for 72 hours straight. I have experienced working until my 6 month old daughter did not recognize me at the end of the week.
Is that how busy they are? I am very sure that they are so busy, that they can only spend 2 hours at the nearby Mamak stall, or can only leave at 5:10 PM instead of 5, or can only have 1 hour of lunch.
The management staffs are worse. I have to beg and plead so that I can get my on-call claims, of RM25 per 48 hours of work. While sitting in an air-conditioned office, they will at their own leisure, process my call claims so that I will receive them by the next decade.
The state health or Hospital Director would just give another inspirational talk (of bollocks) on team effort and beauty of teamwork.
That is how Malaysian doctors are treated in the government sector: without respect, without dignity and without significance. Why?
It is because we are bound by ethics to try our best to save lives, despite how ill-treated we are. We hardly have time to complaint because we are too busy or tired, and we would rather spend the precious time resting or seeing our loved ones. The burden of trying to save lives is on our shoulders alone. No MAs or Staff nurses would shoulder it with us. They have their own bosses: the Sisters, Matrons, or Head of MAs, which job description is to ensure that the big bad doctors will not ask their underlings to do extra work.
This is how the Malaysian Ministry of Health have treated their doctors. I am very sure that in each and every doctor, there is a slowly-burning patience in serving the Malaysian people, which will eventually fade and cause them to surrender to serving a place that treats them better.
A few colleagues who graduated from UK choose to serve there:
"The pay is more, and we get the respect we deserve"
Another works in Brunei:
“Here the staff nurses respect Malaysian doctors, and they are very co-operative" (He ended up marrying one)
A few are consultants in Singapore (working with me):
"Here we are treated well, we spearhead the management, and every else do their work to the best of their capabilities".
A few even enjoys working in Indonesia:
“The work-load is horrible since there are a lot of patients, but we are well respected by every hospital personnel" (They have migrated there for nearly a decade)
I am sure that people will see doctors as power-hungry individuals who want to be the boss in the hospital. Trust me, after having graduated 6-7 years of medical school, earning a DEGREE, and subsequently MASTERS, and SUBSPECIALITY, you would expect a degree of respect and being considered important. We are trying our best to improve patient's quality of life, or making sure he lives another day. Is it too much to ask from the system that we are important?
I find that Malaysia is the only country that is making doctors' lives miserable and treated like rubbish. It was never about the pay in the first place. It is about the treatment we are getting and the false political-based promises. Do you know that the so-called circular about doctors can have the day off after working 24 hours straight released JULY 2009 is not yet implemented? Do you know that the raise of UD 41 to 44 does not involve every doctor in the government service?
We are waiting for improvement. We have waited a long time when we were working in the system. Somewhere along the line we decided to leave and wait outside the system. Until the system changes, we will continue to work overseas, in countries which are appreciative of us. Trust me, Malaysian-graduate doctors are considered highly skilful and competent in neighbouring countries, and the 15 % brain drain is more significant than you think.
We will return when the system prioritize us and gives us the quality of life we deserve.
If it stays the same, Malaysian Hospitals would end up having Staff nurses and Medical Assistants as "Doctors", and we would have to send patients to Indonesia for an appendicectomy.
Hear our voice. We hardly speak, but will usually fade away from conflict (and fly to another place).
Tuesday, May 11, 2010
友谊万岁~
今天醒来，看到青松的 sms.. 问我今天会不会去找他.. Haha~~~
就决定，去吧~
他说我们四年半没见过面了。。=.=" 那么久哦？
虽然我们只是在，2004 年年尾，因为同一个旅行团而认识，有缘聚在一起短短一个星期。。
过后，你回到马六甲，我回雪兰莪..
没想到，可以一直维持这段友谊到今天吧..
真的从没想过，当时旅行结束后，如今还能见面，谈天的.. =)
而且，一点也不觉得尴尬。。还能聊得很投契耶。算不错了吧。^^
这个叫远距离友谊~~~ 哈哈！！！
友谊万岁！！！！
就决定，去吧~
他说我们四年半没见过面了。。=.=" 那么久哦？
虽然我们只是在，2004 年年尾，因为同一个旅行团而认识，有缘聚在一起短短一个星期。。
过后，你回到马六甲，我回雪兰莪..
没想到，可以一直维持这段友谊到今天吧..
真的从没想过，当时旅行结束后，如今还能见面，谈天的.. =)
而且，一点也不觉得尴尬。。还能聊得很投契耶。算不错了吧。^^
这个叫远距离友谊~~~ 哈哈！！！
友谊万岁！！！！
Monday, May 10, 2010
蓝又时 鱼的泪 =)
我们以为鱼是不哭的 而它也从不闭上眼睛
让自己安静 让自己休息
但我知道它是会哭的 只是在水里面待着
看不见有难过的眼泪 眼泪在流着
你就像鱼儿 我也像鱼儿
总有 人觉得我们是坚强的
不会 哭的
我真的知道你在哭 或许你选择去躲着
又或者是微微的笑着 我真的都看见了
我真的知道你会哭 或许你总是笑笑的
但我知道你心里面的
有种不舍 是感动的 心软的
我知道你在哭 或许你选择去躲着
又或者是微微的笑着 我真的都看见了
我真的知道你会哭 或许你总是笑笑的
但我知道你心里面的
有一种的舍不得 我看见了
让自己安静 让自己休息
但我知道它是会哭的 只是在水里面待着
看不见有难过的眼泪 眼泪在流着
你就像鱼儿 我也像鱼儿
总有 人觉得我们是坚强的
不会 哭的
我真的知道你在哭 或许你选择去躲着
又或者是微微的笑着 我真的都看见了
我真的知道你会哭 或许你总是笑笑的
但我知道你心里面的
有种不舍 是感动的 心软的
我知道你在哭 或许你选择去躲着
又或者是微微的笑着 我真的都看见了
我真的知道你会哭 或许你总是笑笑的
但我知道你心里面的
有一种的舍不得 我看见了
Friday, May 7, 2010
无力感
人 有许多能力所不可及的地方
有许多的事情， 想解决，也解决不了...
一切只能尽力...
尽力了，结果会怎么样，就交由上天决定了..
人本来就是懦弱的？抑或只有我...
有些问题，想破头，也想不出个所以然..
事情发生以后，才发现当初，把一切复杂化了。
有时候，觉得即将世界末日了...
但，日子还是照过... 太阳还是会升起..
再怎么糟糕的事情，还是会过去的。
只是看，那以后的事情，你怎么样去面对罢了.. =)
有许多的事情， 想解决，也解决不了...
一切只能尽力...
尽力了，结果会怎么样，就交由上天决定了..
人本来就是懦弱的？抑或只有我...
有些问题，想破头，也想不出个所以然..
事情发生以后，才发现当初，把一切复杂化了。
有时候，觉得即将世界末日了...
但，日子还是照过... 太阳还是会升起..
再怎么糟糕的事情，还是会过去的。
只是看，那以后的事情，你怎么样去面对罢了.. =)
Tuesday, May 4, 2010
假期
就这样一晃，两个星期过去了。。
这个假期，真的就这样过么？想说，希望整个假期过了，不会遗憾虚度了光阴。。
到底这个假期要怎么过，才是对的呢？我也不知道...
想放松一下。。到底怎么样才叫做休息呢？有时过的觉得自己很颓废...
怎么样才叫充实呢？
好像快快开学哦。。想念天天上课，啃书的日子。甚至有点想念起考试来了..
这个假期，真的就这样过么？想说，希望整个假期过了，不会遗憾虚度了光阴。。
到底这个假期要怎么过，才是对的呢？我也不知道...
想放松一下。。到底怎么样才叫做休息呢？有时过的觉得自己很颓废...
怎么样才叫充实呢？
好像快快开学哦。。想念天天上课，啃书的日子。甚至有点想念起考试来了..
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